Post by Shadowblade c; on Jun 27, 2021 23:05:45 GMT -6
thread starters:
"I’ll be the answer to the question
I can’t answer, it’s a question
You can’t spit it out, can we find,
We find, we find a way out, a way out " - "songname" by Artistname
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PI ♂UTAA // ~7? / 44 - pansexual - mate - kits
PI ♀ALULA-NOVA // ~6m / 10 - pansexual - mate - kits - honey dibs
Sun/Moon ♂SYNDROME-ENIGMA // ~6 / 36 - pansexual - Daylight 2.0/Asphodel - like 30something
MoonClan ♂ENIGMASOUL // ~2/24 - pansexual - mate - kits
MoonClan ♀LILYSOUL // ~2/24 - pansexual - mate - kits
WinterClan ♀ORIOLELEI // ?? - pansexual - rsvd- kits - pao dibs pao and acorn demand me in winterclan
WinterClan ♀SCAREDBREATH // ~6/36 - pansexual - mate - Shiningkit - pao dibs pao and acorn demand me in winterclan
WinterClan ♂INDIGOCHILL // ?~5.5/34 - pansexual - mate - Shiningkit - pao dibs pao and acorn demand me in winterclan
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(storage)RR♀♎︎DELU ANWIR // ~1m/1 (pls adopt fam)
⋰ ⛓️PI ᴅᴇᴀᴛh ᴘʀᴏxƴ ☠ ⋰ ⋰ ☾ ⲙᴏᴏɴᴄʟᴀη Hɪɢʜ Ⲱᴀꞅʟᴏᴄᴋ🕯 ⋰
uta to hywell: 'hey could you fall for me?' /pushes him of tree
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[/font][/font][/b]♂STORMY GHOST/FLICKER/FLASH/FRIGHT/ARTIC/Haze/PHANTOM // age - orientation - mate - kits - cause they need more males
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RR ♂♀NAME // - age - orientation - mate - kits - honey dibs
. : retired due to lost bios: BrookClan ♂SERPENTSOUL //
. : recovered bios: Vanishingtrick // Shadowblade~Moss-sky
Knowledge is a powerful thing. Not a bad thing, or a good one. Like power itself, I can be used for any means, whether to taint or enlighten is all up to the one who wields it. Skill, logic, and intellect - yes three descriptive terms that delinquently define this feline. Being a Medicine Cat and being the bridge between the spirit world of StarClan and physical realm is more than this kit can dream, even if it is unlikely. Perhaps just a tad bit of an obsession, but he definitely lives and breathes for StarClan, and StarClan only. Every rule, every word of guidance, every starry pelt is well... his senpai, and he is the yandere. As if it needed to be said, he is strict on tradition and technicalities bother him. His mind, heart, body and soul are still vulnerable to influence but seeks worldly experience and knowledge whilst maintaining purity and innocence or risk corruption. There is a creativeness to this tom, and when intrigued with a strong desire, he has an overwhelming optimistic attitude. He also encourages meditation to promote awareness and concentration. He can really focus on one thing at a time, which works out since it ties into, or possibly led to, his belief of taking things one step at a time, channeling everything towards the goal and setting one up for success by removing distractions and staying committed. One could hope the tables don't get turned but greed, deceit, manipulation are vices Vanishingtrick tries to ignore and out himself to be better than that. But in even worse cases, he can be the be one on the end and be the victim of cunning trickery, making him feel untrustworthy of others and confusion. He likes to think he's at the top of the food chain, but it's a devastating truth he's not, and falling off his own pedestal he set himself upon can effect his personality and mood.He rarely lets himself get away with it, but it's an honest confession he'll use his charm and manipulates telling himself it's just like telling a white lie but even so, he feels out of touch still. Feeling down like this, he ends up brooding and taking a good look at his skills, talents and abilities only to end up feeling they are not being used and he's missing his true potential. No matter how advanced he is to others, he still feels like a novice and has so much more to give. Medicine cat or not, he acts like one and one day he might just step in as one. Compliments, however, can just be avoided since he won't accept it and actually just distracts him like a voice in the back of his mind, reminding him to improve and get even better. Vanishingtrick was annoyed when Empirestrike was promoted early before them, more so out of a need to preserve tradition than sibling jealousy. It seems whoever started telling him the way of the clan indirectly caused his obsession as Vanishingtrick would be told one thing, but see or experience something else happening and felt a need to bother everyone around him about how unfair and necessary it is for things like Empirestrike to stay behind and be promoted properly with his litter mates, or else the upsurging revolution would lead to chaotic and manic anarchy. Seriously, whoever taught a kitten these kind of words should be put on double duty. Vanishingtrick sees himself as a 'proper warrior' and follower of the warrior way, so even his own siblings consider him a drag when he gets OCD on rules and traditions. He can't understand the simple concept of allowing exceptions because if exceptions can exist than he believes the rules are invalid. Well, what's a cat to do, other than just agree with his rambling and hope to distract him about something else? Good luck WaterClan cats, you might just need it. His name was inspired by Vanishingjay of MoonClan, wonder what mysterious reasoning is behind that? Vanishingtrick is one of 23 cats based on the Tarot card; his card is The Magician. Vanishingtrick is the son of Uta (of PI) and Hickorypaw (of WaterClan). His littermates are Zerofeather, Crescentpool, Whiteshadow, Empirestrike, and Taurusflame. For more on his family see bio ( tinyurl.com/z6nkfo3 )
idk what happened to vanishingjay and why past me had to be a vague dick and not just say the connection
P O L A R G A L E
Solitude has many meanings and natures. There is rejected isolation, rebellious breaking from the herd, and simply being able to survive perfectly well without anyone else. Polargale takes on the attitude of the first. The stout and perhaps pudgy she-kit is naturally reserved and uncomfortably awkward. Easily spooked and cowardly, she's the quietest and least outgoing of her siblings. She doesn't participate in the games, perhaps for fear of embarrassment or failure. Instead, she places herself away from the rest, pouncing on leaves or resting. She is hinted to be more knowledgeable than she appears and rather success in her tactics, but still never visibly happy or even moved at all by achievements. Negative attention induces a rather strong flight instinct, and she's very quick to avoid blame and escape the situation to the best of her ability. Everything about her shy and scared nature reads "NOT A THREAT" in all caps making her so convincing. The absence of her father, Uta, isn't a problem to her as she relies a great deal on her mother, Vadima - or she did. The unexpected death of her mother shouldn't have happened, and Polargale out of all of them needed her the most. Even her relationships with her siblings fall apart as she grows more distant and depression makes her into an unmotivated lump of fur wallowing in despair. Even when Concordfawn and Honeytongue both become sick, Polargale does not bother to visit or show concern telling Nebulous-sight "they have to die someday". Her mentor, Ratway, seems to be the only one to get her to do anything though not without his fairs shares of difficulty, and only out of necessity. She seems completely lost and wandering this time of soul searching. Given the prefix 'polar' for the single white spot on her chest, Polargale is otherwise entirely a deep black, barely tinted with a dark chocolate on the inner layer of her pelt. She is slightly disadvantaged by a mid-fluffy coat, but it's luckily on the thin side. Her eyes are a calm gold, not too bright nor too cold. She's not quite insecure about her heavyset build, due to her concealing fur, but there is always a potential. Heaven knows she is prone to diffidence. Polargale is one of 23 cats based on the Tarot card; her card is The Hermit. Polargale is the daughter of Uta (of PI) and Vadima (of SummerClan). Her littermates are Honeytongue, Concordfawn, Harpywing, Nebulous-sight, Wildfate, Mistralcry. Made by axiomatic-cosmos before adoption, revisions and updates made by Shadowblade~Moss-sky.
had a bonnie and clyde plot with Ratscar and were suppose to have kits - mostly likely died in a bad deed gone wrong.
Vanishingtrick
Shadowblade~Moss-sky
Knowledge is a powerful thing. Not a bad thing, or a good one. Like power itself, I can be used for any means, whether to taint or enlighten is all up to the one who wields it. Skill, logic, and intellect - yes three descriptive terms that delinquently define this feline. Being a Medicine Cat and being the bridge between the spirit world of StarClan and physical realm is more than this kit can dream, even if it is unlikely. Perhaps just a tad bit of an obsession, but he definitely lives and breathes for StarClan, and StarClan only. Every rule, every word of guidance, every starry pelt is well... his senpai, and he is the yandere. As if it needed to be said, he is strict on tradition and technicalities bother him. His mind, heart, body and soul are still vulnerable to influence but seeks worldly experience and knowledge whilst maintaining purity and innocence or risk corruption. There is a creativeness to this tom, and when intrigued with a strong desire, he has an overwhelming optimistic attitude. He also encourages meditation to promote awareness and concentration. He can really focus on one thing at a time, which works out since it ties into, or possibly led to, his belief of taking things one step at a time, channeling everything towards the goal and setting one up for success by removing distractions and staying committed. One could hope the tables don't get turned but greed, deceit, manipulation are vices Vanishingtrick tries to ignore and out himself to be better than that. But in even worse cases, he can be the be one on the end and be the victim of cunning trickery, making him feel untrustworthy of others and confusion. He likes to think he's at the top of the food chain, but it's a devastating truth he's not, and falling off his own pedestal he set himself upon can effect his personality and mood. He rarely lets himself get away with it, but it's an honest confession he'll use his charm and manipulates telling himself it's just like telling a white lie but even so, he feels out of touch still. Feeling down like this, he ends up brooding and taking a good look at his skills, talents and abilities only to end up feeling they are not being used and he's missing his true potential. No matter how advanced he is to others, he still feels like a novice and has so much more to give. Medicine cat or not, he acts like one and one day he might just step in as one. Compliments, however, can just be avoided since he won't accept it and actually just distracts him like a voice in the back of his mind, reminding him to improve and get even better. Vanishingkit was very annoyed when Empirepaw was promoted early before them, more so out of a need to preserve tradition than sibling jealousy. It seems whoever started telling him the way of the clan indirectly caused his obsession as Vanishingkit would be told one thing, but see or experience something else happening and felt a need to bother everyone around him about how unfair and necessary it is for things like Empirepaw to stay behind and be promoted properly with his litter mates, or else the upsurging revolution would lead to chaotic and manic anarchy. Seriously, whoever taught a kitten these kind of words should be put on double duty for that. Vanishingtrick sees himself as a 'proper warrior' and follower of the warrior way, so even his own siblings consider him a drag when he gets OCD on rules and traditions. He can't understand the simple concept of allowing exceptions because if exceptions can exist than he believes the rules are invalid. Well, what's a cat to do, other than just agree with his rambling and hope to distract him about something else? Good luck WaterClan cats, you might just need it. His name was inspired by Vanishingjay of MoonClan, wonder what mysterious reasoning is behind that? Vanishingtrick is one of 23 cats based on the Tarot card; his card is The Magician. Vanishingtrick is the son of Uta (of PI) and Hickorypaw (of WaterClan). His littermates are Zerofeather, Crescentpool, Whiteshadow, Empirestrike, and Taurusflame.
me:put him in swiftclan cause #nomadlife or summerclan cause he would have a half-brother there, or or just nomad it as a loner cause he mad at starry cats. i'm sure there's a plot somewhere int hat angeyboi i just gotta find it
honey: If he goes to swift he can hang with a ghost
me: Yeah i didn't get to play him much and he was my angry med-cat-wannabe so the fact he lost most his family and clan makes me want to bring him back and maybe cause havoc #antihero
honey: But regardless, Vulcan is old af, so there's a good chance your guy would have known him when he was alive, possibly. xD SwiftClan was started by a WaterClan cat too, btw Vulcan's grandson, Chimerahunt/star
dot: Some of the survival clan cats went to Summerclan but Fairystar was a giant jerk because of his father cheating on his mother with survival clan she-cats that he essentially kicked them out of Summerclan but Swiftclan was created shortly after that if y’all are interested in what has happened to those cats since. I know a good chunk of Earthclan cats live in Fall. As for Brook I never knew what to do with mine and I currently just have some chilling in Moon because I didn’t know where to throw them.
foundthreads: www.warriorcatclans2.com/thread/5288035/「ғᴏʀᴄᴇᴅ+ᴛᴏ+ᴅᴇᴀʟ+ᴡ/+ᴡʜᴀᴛ+ɪ+ғᴇᴇʟ+♥+ɴᴏ+ᴅɪsᴛʀᴀᴄᴛɪᴏɴ+ᴛᴏ+ᴍᴀsᴋ+ᴡʜᴀᴛ+ɪs+ʀᴇᴀʟ+」
flower themed songs to make flower crowns too that aren't about breakups
www.youtube.com/watch?v=5HsTGE-tl4o
www.youtube.com/watch?v=83reId9C_aI
.·´¯`·.·❄ winterclan hey, i see you get in here!❄·.·´¯`·.
Scaredbreath - inspired by Poison Ivy (DC) and Hellish Bliazzard/Fubuki (One Punch Man), full bio on winterclan joining thread here's her tldr;
>mother died during birth result in her brother Brokensight born with broken paw, Scared has abandonment issues and prioritized her brother making her now decline and avoid plans so she wont be abandoned or disappointed
>became apprentice during the war with PI, got cocky and 2 scars from them and her brother mostly blinded - the trauma, lack of faith in humanity and bias towards everyone out of their clan resulted from the war and reinforces her believing in the winterclan's values
uta & accalia loveplot outline:
2016
- uta probably flirted with the idea of accalia-kun adoring him and while not enabling it, didn't curb the intentions either letting her have hope as she's almost a warrior/hunter
- adelaide, his seemingly insane fling resulting in a litter that was abandoned by both parents, had no desire to step in and wouldn't even get the chance to talk to adelaide about it as she is cited to accidentally drowned emblem| (now ian i think?) never got back to me on any details so /shrug
- uta cannot cope with change, while not deeply affected by adelaide's death is disappointed for reasons he doesn't understand (need to figure out this emotion) was it suicide? he probably would've respected her wishes to die knowing he's the last person capable of helping someone out of that position, was she murdered/an accident he still might not intervene unless asked to by her. He doesn't stick out his neck to help just anyone. Uta tries to 'dad', another chance to change and encouraged due to being in PI but ultimately doesn't want to - probably has help from now-adult Accalia despite closing off his interest in her and turning down. the adelaide situation is such a wreck he doesn't want to go through it again.
- uta is done trying to 'dad' as soon as the boys are trainees and no longer need babying. Barely acknowledgement them like their just another clanmate than his kits, they probably like accalia more than him.
- uta sees yomo after half a year of not visiting due to the litter. uta is obsessed and hurt he is casual, when yomo admits he actually feels the same he resumes his previous feelings towards the tom now deeply co-dependent and makes the mistake of heavily centering his life around their relationship as he cut off his flings at least with any child-bearing she-cats, and closed himself off to any deeper relationships like with accalia.
<break from roleplaying/sitechange gap, making this up to fill it in>
-accalia was inactive till now, bringing her back she probably had a difficult time understanding where she and uta stood but knowing he was in love with yomo gave her no change to get through to him.
2017
-accalia tries working onn herself being friends and content with passively loving him from afar she builds her confidence and occasionally spars with others including uta to improve her skill and more confidence would come naturally from being proud in herself. They still talk and interact the more uta friend group shrank - the younglings ayato, touka, kaneki, insomnia went inactive, as did rize, yomo, all lovers, trainees and friends, and his implied cannibal group died off - friends and cannibals he maybe introduced her to and once considered letting be around her but didn't now validating the dangerous uta feels about himself, his friends and general way of life. This makes him worry about her in both keeping her away emotional but still training her since he selfishly becomes dependent on her friendship even while believing he is a danger to her.
-for the next year uta stayed obsessed with yomo fighting outsiders more, looking yomo and even spending free time in dayclan for it's youthful effects to stay in peak condition all for yomo who he would not find.
-his 'artwork' and murders become most extreme and disturbing and less elaborate or detailed.
2018
-accalia stayed in touched and worried about uta still insisting he come back as he started to drift away from the group and surprisingly does so.
-site move, rr moves and survival clans are destroyed
-uta and accalia resume as before and uta potentially repeating his dependency, now on accalia and purely social.
event - potential fire/disaster/plot threatens PI uta is fine and with most group, accalia stresses rescuing and saving clanmates cause she is a good lil smol bean we dont deserve. She is a hero among a group of villains. uta goes back for her as she enters a dangerous situation and save her. uta lightly chides her for putting herself in danger like that and her good nature is going to get her killed and shows feelings of caring for her. <what exactly does he say to trigger accalia's feelings to resurface?> U:"You can't be so reckless like that Accalia, you could've hurt yourself." A:"I know, but i had to help the others Uta you should try it sometimes/laugh smile" U: /sets her down to be looked by the doctor/shaman "Accalia, you have to tell me next time, /looks in the eyes/ I don't know what i'd do without you. You make me worry but i will always be here to protect you; I cant lose you too, you know"
-accalia feels -and knows- shes becoming conflicted again seeing the chance to talk to him before he goes A: "Please dont do this - dont do this to me again. Uta can we please talk-" coughs from smoke inhalation, afraid if they don't talk then the moment will pass. Maybe another cat/shaman interrupts out of pity to not watch Uta ruin another league member by breaking her heart while sick/injured. Uta: "Accalia,of course I'll always be here for you, and I'll be right here when you need me." /shamen takes her away
confession> accalia: "you don't understand, when i met you i felt confident in myself finally and when i doubted that you told me 'then they don't deserve you'. I still remember and feel that embarrassing smile and since that day I finally felt like I didn't have to have someone else's approval - that there was nothing wrong with me. I realized that i was so scared of others and just wanted them to like me it felt like my heart was going to break because I hated myself too. But you taught me that i had to be brave to face this world. When my world was starting to feel a nightmare when i was both asleep and awake you were my glimmer of hope that it didn't have to be that way - that not everyone was that way. I admired you for telling me that, doing something you didn't have to do - even if it just a random whim where you felt like expressing yourself to me without caring what i would say and knowing it didn't matter to you if i lashed out at you or thanked you for the compliment because truth is you don't care about what others think and you wont let anyone stop you from being you. /laughs and cries a bit/. When I felt low, and doubted myself, when i was starting to absolutely hate myself I realized I wanted to be like you. I just wanted to love myself and have level of peace of mind because i don't want to live not liking myself and who i am - I want to make myself proud of who i am. I will always admire and love you for that little act of kindness. There was a time when you did things for no reason it seemed, whether it was inspiring me or bringing others together for no one's benefit other than our own and I thought you're either the most non-sensical capricious tom ever or one of the most free and secretly benevolent souls I've met but something plagues you too. I don't know what it is /concerned look/ I don't know why you changed or rather, why you didn't ... but of all cats, you have to know whatever it is - nothing's impossible for you to overcome and if you doubt that to believe in the whispers in the back of your head then remember they don't deserve you.
"So I decided that I would do just that, if I wanted to br happy, I was going to br happy, if I wanted to feel pretty I wad going to let myself feel that way, if I wanted to make myself have value even if it wad only to me I wad going to be someone I could be proud of and no one was going to get in my way. "
Scene perhaps if someone asks 'why settle down with Accalia/ why not cheat on her/why not continue his polyamory?'
Uta description of his relationships and switch to monogamy for her: I guess <physical stuff> is nice, people having 'fun' with each other is always interesting but there was always something more I wanted that I only got glimpses of even then. I couldn't have that connection, being so close to so many people but knowing none of them would accept you- they might even hate or be disgusted by you. They'd probably hate to be touched or even near you - nothing good could ever come from it, and if it did its probably because theres something wrong with them, there's always been something 'wrong' with those who did know the honest truth about me, and it's likely because theres something just as 'wrong' with them. We all have our secrets.
I just wanted to be the monster I knew I was, already too far to be redeemed so I just wouldn't ask for it when I already knew the answer. I would just be getting my hopes up. I would just be opening myself to being crushed. Cats like Accalia were still normal and sane for the most part, maybe in need of a little hopeful push in the right direction but otherwise normal, they could live normal happy lives and deserved to have that. So I just wanted to live and die the way I wanted, on my terms, doing what honestly made me happy or at least I think it did for a while.
Then I met Yomo. I finally met my equal, and if he was the hero to my villain, then I wanted nothing more than to push ourselves to the edge, farther than we'r could've gone on our own or with lesser equals- I would make him invincible to this world and all its harm. Then I could die in his arms.
But he just wouldn't let me. After a while it became routine to prepare a den outside RR/PI stocked with everything, and at the end of the day we could crawl inside the same den, wallow in our secretly shared self-wallow.<rephrase used wallow twice> Feel fucked up together, like two sides of the same coin and that desire made me crave for us to be one. It was safe, it was easy, I didn't have to change. He gave me exactly what I wanted. It felt perfect... so I couldn't let it change, and I always knew he was better than me - still so hopeful, still able to leave me behind... I could never let him go, I thought I could never find that level of intimacy again, that depth of entanglement love - and I didn't really want to find it again.
To have intimacy, to have love is to be put your heart out there, to be vulnerable with each person you try with and likely: to be hurt if not crushed and I was already dying at the thought, the risk of him leaving me behind. Because he could still change, but I couldn't- I could never accept the world that would always wish for my kind to just die and never be anything more. I just couldnt see how any of that could ever change, let alone in out lifetime. I know it was selfish and toxic at the time but I didnt want it any other way, or I didnt want to put in the effort to change it for the better...
Without him, I didnt know what I wanted anymore. It was just hollow and unbearable. I know I wanted it to stop but I didnt know how. I know the loneliness was killing me, but going through it all over again might actually break me. I know I still cared for others, or maybe it was just Accalia at the time. She could still waste her time and care for someone like me and I knew I needed to be a better friend to her for that. I think she could tell by the way I started at her a little too long- things still unsaid, a wall still dividing us from knowing the true me and a desire on both sides for it to not be that way. But I couldn't do it, I was too much of a coward to have her leave me too. When it couldnt go on, and we finally told our truths it was the most relieving thing in years. If I could just keep her friendship or end things without her hating me it would be enough... It would be enough.
She gave me what I wanted and more: to be what I needed when she had no responsibility to. I dont doubt Yomo wouldve done the same if I still had him ... but I lost him and had to change this time if I wanted to keep what i had. She was the match that lit me on fire. I dont even care if someone else could offer all of that too me, she deserves the loyalty she asked for, and I'll give her that basic respect or I'm not worth the skin of my pelt.
finsih reply later:
(oh that reminds me, when the eclipse happens I wonder if Yare and Enigma will call a truce and that builds their friendship. He don't like SunClan and although they kinda getting just desserts for their clan's prevailing murderous actions, Enigma wont like the Dominion cats my better so enemy of my enemy is my friend. Even if he can't actually do anything plot-wise I like to thing it's sweet they do meet and talk about how they wish they could take them down and brainstorm ideas.
"So thafts whaft it is..." he looked back to her design
"I’ll be the answer to the question
I can’t answer, it’s a question
You can’t spit it out, can we find,
We find, we find a way out, a way out " - "songname" by Artistname
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Overview: ~ ᴍᴀʟᴇs 3 ◆ ғᴇᴍᴀʟᴇs 2 ~
DayClan - NightClan - SunClan - MoonClan - SpringClan - SummerClan
FallClan - WinterClan - SwiftClan - PI - RR
DayClan - NightClan - SunClan - MoonClan - SpringClan - SummerClan
FallClan - WinterClan - SwiftClan - PI - RR
♂♀NAME // - age - orientation - mate - kits - plot ideas◆ TYPE : details
PI ♂UTAA // ~7? / 44 - pansexual - mate - kits
PI ♀ALULA-NOVA // ~6m / 10 - pansexual - mate - kits - honey dibs
Sun/Moon ♂SYNDROME-ENIGMA // ~6 / 36 - pansexual - Daylight 2.0/Asphodel - like 30something
MoonClan ♂ENIGMASOUL // ~2/24 - pansexual - mate - kits
MoonClan ♀LILYSOUL // ~2/24 - pansexual - mate - kits
WinterClan ♀ORIOLELEI // ?? - pansexual - rsvd- kits - pao dibs pao and acorn demand me in winterclan
WinterClan ♀SCAREDBREATH // ~6/36 - pansexual - mate - Shiningkit - pao dibs pao and acorn demand me in winterclan
WinterClan ♂INDIGOCHILL // ?~5.5/34 - pansexual - mate - Shiningkit - pao dibs pao and acorn demand me in winterclan
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(Moving)Moon♂♈︎SYNDROME-ENIGMA// ~6/48* - pansexual - Daylight 1.0 /Asphodel
(moving)Moon♂♒︎ENIGMAHEART // ~2/32 - pansexual - polyamorous: mates
(moving)Winter⚲♏︎DELIGHTFULKIT trouble // ~?/? - orientation - mate
(storage)Winter♀♈︎ORIOLELEI // ~?/? - pansexual - rsvd(storage)RR♀♋︎PAISLEY ANWIR // ~3m/4
♕ Moon♀♒︎LILYSOUL // ~2/32 - omnisexual(prefer: female) - mate
✧Moon♀?LANTERNGLOW // ~1/18 - pansexual - rsvd
Winter♀♉︎SCAREDBREATH// ~?/? - omnisexual(prefer: female) - mate
✧Winter♂♋︎INDIGOCHILL // ~?/? - pansexual - mate
[/div][/font][/font][/font][/font][/font][/font][/font][/font][/div][/font]Day♂♒︎NOBLEPAW fire // ~6m/13 - pansexual - mate
✧Summ♂♓︎NEBULOUS-SIGHT // ~5/38* - pansexual - polyamorous: mates
✧♕ Sun ♂♑︎MIDNIGHTCURRENT/ Dark // ~1/18 - pansexual - mate
⋰ ⛓️PI ᴅᴇᴀᴛh ᴘʀᴏxƴ ☠ ⋰ ⋰ ☾ ⲙᴏᴏɴᴄʟᴀη Hɪɢʜ Ⲱᴀꞅʟᴏᴄᴋ🕯 ⋰
uta to hywell: 'hey could you fall for me?' /pushes him of tree
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[/font][/font][/b]♂STORMY GHOST/FLICKER/FLASH/FRIGHT/ARTIC/Haze/PHANTOM // age - orientation - mate - kits - cause they need more males
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RR ♂♀NAME // - age - orientation - mate - kits - honey dibs
. : retired due to lost bios: BrookClan ♂SERPENTSOUL //
. : recovered bios: Vanishingtrick // Shadowblade~Moss-sky
Knowledge is a powerful thing. Not a bad thing, or a good one. Like power itself, I can be used for any means, whether to taint or enlighten is all up to the one who wields it. Skill, logic, and intellect - yes three descriptive terms that delinquently define this feline. Being a Medicine Cat and being the bridge between the spirit world of StarClan and physical realm is more than this kit can dream, even if it is unlikely. Perhaps just a tad bit of an obsession, but he definitely lives and breathes for StarClan, and StarClan only. Every rule, every word of guidance, every starry pelt is well... his senpai, and he is the yandere. As if it needed to be said, he is strict on tradition and technicalities bother him. His mind, heart, body and soul are still vulnerable to influence but seeks worldly experience and knowledge whilst maintaining purity and innocence or risk corruption. There is a creativeness to this tom, and when intrigued with a strong desire, he has an overwhelming optimistic attitude. He also encourages meditation to promote awareness and concentration. He can really focus on one thing at a time, which works out since it ties into, or possibly led to, his belief of taking things one step at a time, channeling everything towards the goal and setting one up for success by removing distractions and staying committed. One could hope the tables don't get turned but greed, deceit, manipulation are vices Vanishingtrick tries to ignore and out himself to be better than that. But in even worse cases, he can be the be one on the end and be the victim of cunning trickery, making him feel untrustworthy of others and confusion. He likes to think he's at the top of the food chain, but it's a devastating truth he's not, and falling off his own pedestal he set himself upon can effect his personality and mood.He rarely lets himself get away with it, but it's an honest confession he'll use his charm and manipulates telling himself it's just like telling a white lie but even so, he feels out of touch still. Feeling down like this, he ends up brooding and taking a good look at his skills, talents and abilities only to end up feeling they are not being used and he's missing his true potential. No matter how advanced he is to others, he still feels like a novice and has so much more to give. Medicine cat or not, he acts like one and one day he might just step in as one. Compliments, however, can just be avoided since he won't accept it and actually just distracts him like a voice in the back of his mind, reminding him to improve and get even better. Vanishingtrick was annoyed when Empirestrike was promoted early before them, more so out of a need to preserve tradition than sibling jealousy. It seems whoever started telling him the way of the clan indirectly caused his obsession as Vanishingtrick would be told one thing, but see or experience something else happening and felt a need to bother everyone around him about how unfair and necessary it is for things like Empirestrike to stay behind and be promoted properly with his litter mates, or else the upsurging revolution would lead to chaotic and manic anarchy. Seriously, whoever taught a kitten these kind of words should be put on double duty. Vanishingtrick sees himself as a 'proper warrior' and follower of the warrior way, so even his own siblings consider him a drag when he gets OCD on rules and traditions. He can't understand the simple concept of allowing exceptions because if exceptions can exist than he believes the rules are invalid. Well, what's a cat to do, other than just agree with his rambling and hope to distract him about something else? Good luck WaterClan cats, you might just need it. His name was inspired by Vanishingjay of MoonClan, wonder what mysterious reasoning is behind that? Vanishingtrick is one of 23 cats based on the Tarot card; his card is The Magician. Vanishingtrick is the son of Uta (of PI) and Hickorypaw (of WaterClan). His littermates are Zerofeather, Crescentpool, Whiteshadow, Empirestrike, and Taurusflame. For more on his family see bio ( tinyurl.com/z6nkfo3 )
idk what happened to vanishingjay and why past me had to be a vague dick and not just say the connection
P O L A R G A L E
Solitude has many meanings and natures. There is rejected isolation, rebellious breaking from the herd, and simply being able to survive perfectly well without anyone else. Polargale takes on the attitude of the first. The stout and perhaps pudgy she-kit is naturally reserved and uncomfortably awkward. Easily spooked and cowardly, she's the quietest and least outgoing of her siblings. She doesn't participate in the games, perhaps for fear of embarrassment or failure. Instead, she places herself away from the rest, pouncing on leaves or resting. She is hinted to be more knowledgeable than she appears and rather success in her tactics, but still never visibly happy or even moved at all by achievements. Negative attention induces a rather strong flight instinct, and she's very quick to avoid blame and escape the situation to the best of her ability. Everything about her shy and scared nature reads "NOT A THREAT" in all caps making her so convincing. The absence of her father, Uta, isn't a problem to her as she relies a great deal on her mother, Vadima - or she did. The unexpected death of her mother shouldn't have happened, and Polargale out of all of them needed her the most. Even her relationships with her siblings fall apart as she grows more distant and depression makes her into an unmotivated lump of fur wallowing in despair. Even when Concordfawn and Honeytongue both become sick, Polargale does not bother to visit or show concern telling Nebulous-sight "they have to die someday". Her mentor, Ratway, seems to be the only one to get her to do anything though not without his fairs shares of difficulty, and only out of necessity. She seems completely lost and wandering this time of soul searching. Given the prefix 'polar' for the single white spot on her chest, Polargale is otherwise entirely a deep black, barely tinted with a dark chocolate on the inner layer of her pelt. She is slightly disadvantaged by a mid-fluffy coat, but it's luckily on the thin side. Her eyes are a calm gold, not too bright nor too cold. She's not quite insecure about her heavyset build, due to her concealing fur, but there is always a potential. Heaven knows she is prone to diffidence. Polargale is one of 23 cats based on the Tarot card; her card is The Hermit. Polargale is the daughter of Uta (of PI) and Vadima (of SummerClan). Her littermates are Honeytongue, Concordfawn, Harpywing, Nebulous-sight, Wildfate, Mistralcry. Made by axiomatic-cosmos before adoption, revisions and updates made by Shadowblade~Moss-sky.
had a bonnie and clyde plot with Ratscar and were suppose to have kits - mostly likely died in a bad deed gone wrong.
Vanishingtrick
Shadowblade~Moss-sky
Knowledge is a powerful thing. Not a bad thing, or a good one. Like power itself, I can be used for any means, whether to taint or enlighten is all up to the one who wields it. Skill, logic, and intellect - yes three descriptive terms that delinquently define this feline. Being a Medicine Cat and being the bridge between the spirit world of StarClan and physical realm is more than this kit can dream, even if it is unlikely. Perhaps just a tad bit of an obsession, but he definitely lives and breathes for StarClan, and StarClan only. Every rule, every word of guidance, every starry pelt is well... his senpai, and he is the yandere. As if it needed to be said, he is strict on tradition and technicalities bother him. His mind, heart, body and soul are still vulnerable to influence but seeks worldly experience and knowledge whilst maintaining purity and innocence or risk corruption. There is a creativeness to this tom, and when intrigued with a strong desire, he has an overwhelming optimistic attitude. He also encourages meditation to promote awareness and concentration. He can really focus on one thing at a time, which works out since it ties into, or possibly led to, his belief of taking things one step at a time, channeling everything towards the goal and setting one up for success by removing distractions and staying committed. One could hope the tables don't get turned but greed, deceit, manipulation are vices Vanishingtrick tries to ignore and out himself to be better than that. But in even worse cases, he can be the be one on the end and be the victim of cunning trickery, making him feel untrustworthy of others and confusion. He likes to think he's at the top of the food chain, but it's a devastating truth he's not, and falling off his own pedestal he set himself upon can effect his personality and mood. He rarely lets himself get away with it, but it's an honest confession he'll use his charm and manipulates telling himself it's just like telling a white lie but even so, he feels out of touch still. Feeling down like this, he ends up brooding and taking a good look at his skills, talents and abilities only to end up feeling they are not being used and he's missing his true potential. No matter how advanced he is to others, he still feels like a novice and has so much more to give. Medicine cat or not, he acts like one and one day he might just step in as one. Compliments, however, can just be avoided since he won't accept it and actually just distracts him like a voice in the back of his mind, reminding him to improve and get even better. Vanishingkit was very annoyed when Empirepaw was promoted early before them, more so out of a need to preserve tradition than sibling jealousy. It seems whoever started telling him the way of the clan indirectly caused his obsession as Vanishingkit would be told one thing, but see or experience something else happening and felt a need to bother everyone around him about how unfair and necessary it is for things like Empirepaw to stay behind and be promoted properly with his litter mates, or else the upsurging revolution would lead to chaotic and manic anarchy. Seriously, whoever taught a kitten these kind of words should be put on double duty for that. Vanishingtrick sees himself as a 'proper warrior' and follower of the warrior way, so even his own siblings consider him a drag when he gets OCD on rules and traditions. He can't understand the simple concept of allowing exceptions because if exceptions can exist than he believes the rules are invalid. Well, what's a cat to do, other than just agree with his rambling and hope to distract him about something else? Good luck WaterClan cats, you might just need it. His name was inspired by Vanishingjay of MoonClan, wonder what mysterious reasoning is behind that? Vanishingtrick is one of 23 cats based on the Tarot card; his card is The Magician. Vanishingtrick is the son of Uta (of PI) and Hickorypaw (of WaterClan). His littermates are Zerofeather, Crescentpool, Whiteshadow, Empirestrike, and Taurusflame.
me:put him in swiftclan cause #nomadlife or summerclan cause he would have a half-brother there, or or just nomad it as a loner cause he mad at starry cats. i'm sure there's a plot somewhere int hat angeyboi i just gotta find it
honey: If he goes to swift he can hang with a ghost
me: Yeah i didn't get to play him much and he was my angry med-cat-wannabe so the fact he lost most his family and clan makes me want to bring him back and maybe cause havoc #antihero
honey: But regardless, Vulcan is old af, so there's a good chance your guy would have known him when he was alive, possibly. xD SwiftClan was started by a WaterClan cat too, btw Vulcan's grandson, Chimerahunt/star
dot: Some of the survival clan cats went to Summerclan but Fairystar was a giant jerk because of his father cheating on his mother with survival clan she-cats that he essentially kicked them out of Summerclan but Swiftclan was created shortly after that if y’all are interested in what has happened to those cats since. I know a good chunk of Earthclan cats live in Fall. As for Brook I never knew what to do with mine and I currently just have some chilling in Moon because I didn’t know where to throw them.
flower themed songs to make flower crowns too that aren't about breakups
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.·´¯`·.·❄ winterclan hey, i see you get in here!❄·.·´¯`·.
Scaredbreath - inspired by Poison Ivy (DC) and Hellish Bliazzard/Fubuki (One Punch Man), full bio on winterclan joining thread here's her tldr;
>mother died during birth result in her brother Brokensight born with broken paw, Scared has abandonment issues and prioritized her brother making her now decline and avoid plans so she wont be abandoned or disappointed
>became apprentice during the war with PI, got cocky and 2 scars from them and her brother mostly blinded - the trauma, lack of faith in humanity and bias towards everyone out of their clan resulted from the war and reinforces her believing in the winterclan's values
uta & accalia loveplot outline:
2016
- uta probably flirted with the idea of accalia-kun adoring him and while not enabling it, didn't curb the intentions either letting her have hope as she's almost a warrior/hunter
- adelaide, his seemingly insane fling resulting in a litter that was abandoned by both parents, had no desire to step in and wouldn't even get the chance to talk to adelaide about it as she is cited to accidentally drowned emblem| (now ian i think?) never got back to me on any details so /shrug
- uta cannot cope with change, while not deeply affected by adelaide's death is disappointed for reasons he doesn't understand (need to figure out this emotion) was it suicide? he probably would've respected her wishes to die knowing he's the last person capable of helping someone out of that position, was she murdered/an accident he still might not intervene unless asked to by her. He doesn't stick out his neck to help just anyone. Uta tries to 'dad', another chance to change and encouraged due to being in PI but ultimately doesn't want to - probably has help from now-adult Accalia despite closing off his interest in her and turning down. the adelaide situation is such a wreck he doesn't want to go through it again.
- uta is done trying to 'dad' as soon as the boys are trainees and no longer need babying. Barely acknowledgement them like their just another clanmate than his kits, they probably like accalia more than him.
- uta sees yomo after half a year of not visiting due to the litter. uta is obsessed and hurt he is casual, when yomo admits he actually feels the same he resumes his previous feelings towards the tom now deeply co-dependent and makes the mistake of heavily centering his life around their relationship as he cut off his flings at least with any child-bearing she-cats, and closed himself off to any deeper relationships like with accalia.
<break from roleplaying/sitechange gap, making this up to fill it in>
-accalia was inactive till now, bringing her back she probably had a difficult time understanding where she and uta stood but knowing he was in love with yomo gave her no change to get through to him.
2017
-accalia tries working onn herself being friends and content with passively loving him from afar she builds her confidence and occasionally spars with others including uta to improve her skill and more confidence would come naturally from being proud in herself. They still talk and interact the more uta friend group shrank - the younglings ayato, touka, kaneki, insomnia went inactive, as did rize, yomo, all lovers, trainees and friends, and his implied cannibal group died off - friends and cannibals he maybe introduced her to and once considered letting be around her but didn't now validating the dangerous uta feels about himself, his friends and general way of life. This makes him worry about her in both keeping her away emotional but still training her since he selfishly becomes dependent on her friendship even while believing he is a danger to her.
-for the next year uta stayed obsessed with yomo fighting outsiders more, looking yomo and even spending free time in dayclan for it's youthful effects to stay in peak condition all for yomo who he would not find.
-his 'artwork' and murders become most extreme and disturbing and less elaborate or detailed.
2018
-accalia stayed in touched and worried about uta still insisting he come back as he started to drift away from the group and surprisingly does so.
-site move, rr moves and survival clans are destroyed
-uta and accalia resume as before and uta potentially repeating his dependency, now on accalia and purely social.
event - potential fire/disaster/plot threatens PI uta is fine and with most group, accalia stresses rescuing and saving clanmates cause she is a good lil smol bean we dont deserve. She is a hero among a group of villains. uta goes back for her as she enters a dangerous situation and save her. uta lightly chides her for putting herself in danger like that and her good nature is going to get her killed and shows feelings of caring for her. <what exactly does he say to trigger accalia's feelings to resurface?> U:"You can't be so reckless like that Accalia, you could've hurt yourself." A:"I know, but i had to help the others Uta you should try it sometimes/laugh smile" U: /sets her down to be looked by the doctor/shaman "Accalia, you have to tell me next time, /looks in the eyes/ I don't know what i'd do without you. You make me worry but i will always be here to protect you; I cant lose you too, you know"
-accalia feels -and knows- shes becoming conflicted again seeing the chance to talk to him before he goes A: "Please dont do this - dont do this to me again. Uta can we please talk-" coughs from smoke inhalation, afraid if they don't talk then the moment will pass. Maybe another cat/shaman interrupts out of pity to not watch Uta ruin another league member by breaking her heart while sick/injured. Uta: "Accalia,of course I'll always be here for you, and I'll be right here when you need me." /shamen takes her away
confession> accalia: "you don't understand, when i met you i felt confident in myself finally and when i doubted that you told me 'then they don't deserve you'. I still remember and feel that embarrassing smile and since that day I finally felt like I didn't have to have someone else's approval - that there was nothing wrong with me. I realized that i was so scared of others and just wanted them to like me it felt like my heart was going to break because I hated myself too. But you taught me that i had to be brave to face this world. When my world was starting to feel a nightmare when i was both asleep and awake you were my glimmer of hope that it didn't have to be that way - that not everyone was that way. I admired you for telling me that, doing something you didn't have to do - even if it just a random whim where you felt like expressing yourself to me without caring what i would say and knowing it didn't matter to you if i lashed out at you or thanked you for the compliment because truth is you don't care about what others think and you wont let anyone stop you from being you. /laughs and cries a bit/. When I felt low, and doubted myself, when i was starting to absolutely hate myself I realized I wanted to be like you. I just wanted to love myself and have level of peace of mind because i don't want to live not liking myself and who i am - I want to make myself proud of who i am. I will always admire and love you for that little act of kindness. There was a time when you did things for no reason it seemed, whether it was inspiring me or bringing others together for no one's benefit other than our own and I thought you're either the most non-sensical capricious tom ever or one of the most free and secretly benevolent souls I've met but something plagues you too. I don't know what it is /concerned look/ I don't know why you changed or rather, why you didn't ... but of all cats, you have to know whatever it is - nothing's impossible for you to overcome and if you doubt that to believe in the whispers in the back of your head then remember they don't deserve you.
"So I decided that I would do just that, if I wanted to br happy, I was going to br happy, if I wanted to feel pretty I wad going to let myself feel that way, if I wanted to make myself have value even if it wad only to me I wad going to be someone I could be proud of and no one was going to get in my way. "
Scene perhaps if someone asks 'why settle down with Accalia/ why not cheat on her/why not continue his polyamory?'
Uta description of his relationships and switch to monogamy for her: I guess <physical stuff> is nice, people having 'fun' with each other is always interesting but there was always something more I wanted that I only got glimpses of even then. I couldn't have that connection, being so close to so many people but knowing none of them would accept you- they might even hate or be disgusted by you. They'd probably hate to be touched or even near you - nothing good could ever come from it, and if it did its probably because theres something wrong with them, there's always been something 'wrong' with those who did know the honest truth about me, and it's likely because theres something just as 'wrong' with them. We all have our secrets.
I just wanted to be the monster I knew I was, already too far to be redeemed so I just wouldn't ask for it when I already knew the answer. I would just be getting my hopes up. I would just be opening myself to being crushed. Cats like Accalia were still normal and sane for the most part, maybe in need of a little hopeful push in the right direction but otherwise normal, they could live normal happy lives and deserved to have that. So I just wanted to live and die the way I wanted, on my terms, doing what honestly made me happy or at least I think it did for a while.
Then I met Yomo. I finally met my equal, and if he was the hero to my villain, then I wanted nothing more than to push ourselves to the edge, farther than we'r could've gone on our own or with lesser equals- I would make him invincible to this world and all its harm. Then I could die in his arms.
But he just wouldn't let me. After a while it became routine to prepare a den outside RR/PI stocked with everything, and at the end of the day we could crawl inside the same den, wallow in our secretly shared self-wallow.<rephrase used wallow twice> Feel fucked up together, like two sides of the same coin and that desire made me crave for us to be one. It was safe, it was easy, I didn't have to change. He gave me exactly what I wanted. It felt perfect... so I couldn't let it change, and I always knew he was better than me - still so hopeful, still able to leave me behind... I could never let him go, I thought I could never find that level of intimacy again, that depth of entanglement love - and I didn't really want to find it again.
To have intimacy, to have love is to be put your heart out there, to be vulnerable with each person you try with and likely: to be hurt if not crushed and I was already dying at the thought, the risk of him leaving me behind. Because he could still change, but I couldn't- I could never accept the world that would always wish for my kind to just die and never be anything more. I just couldnt see how any of that could ever change, let alone in out lifetime. I know it was selfish and toxic at the time but I didnt want it any other way, or I didnt want to put in the effort to change it for the better...
Without him, I didnt know what I wanted anymore. It was just hollow and unbearable. I know I wanted it to stop but I didnt know how. I know the loneliness was killing me, but going through it all over again might actually break me. I know I still cared for others, or maybe it was just Accalia at the time. She could still waste her time and care for someone like me and I knew I needed to be a better friend to her for that. I think she could tell by the way I started at her a little too long- things still unsaid, a wall still dividing us from knowing the true me and a desire on both sides for it to not be that way. But I couldn't do it, I was too much of a coward to have her leave me too. When it couldnt go on, and we finally told our truths it was the most relieving thing in years. If I could just keep her friendship or end things without her hating me it would be enough... It would be enough.
She gave me what I wanted and more: to be what I needed when she had no responsibility to. I dont doubt Yomo wouldve done the same if I still had him ... but I lost him and had to change this time if I wanted to keep what i had. She was the match that lit me on fire. I dont even care if someone else could offer all of that too me, she deserves the loyalty she asked for, and I'll give her that basic respect or I'm not worth the skin of my pelt.
finsih reply later:
(oh that reminds me, when the eclipse happens I wonder if Yare and Enigma will call a truce and that builds their friendship. He don't like SunClan and although they kinda getting just desserts for their clan's prevailing murderous actions, Enigma wont like the Dominion cats my better so enemy of my enemy is my friend. Even if he can't actually do anything plot-wise I like to thing it's sweet they do meet and talk about how they wish they could take them down and brainstorm ideas.
"So thafts whaft it is..." he looked back to her design
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